I am all those things your father warned you about
Possessive, I wrap around, not wishing to share, an inch
You are mine, I take you out, I stroke you, I put you back inside
If you feel comfortable dividing until we are absent
Then I fly
Out of the window
And away
I have never been able to share when I feel this much
Let others have a portion of
My heart is closed most of the time
Blocked from easy loving
Yet
You came and battered down the door
Tore open my secrets, marching into my throne
Here I lie hidden from everything
You observed and loved me despite
My flayed imperfection and demanding nature
Imploring the kind of devotion few can summon
Now if you take those ebony eyes
Giving them to everyone else
I may not be able to swallow that kind of pill
Because I was brought up with bitterness and ash
What’s mine is mine
Or I let go and walk
Straight out over cliffs edge
It’s not your fault
I’m a one-person lover
I can’t even divide cards
If I see you out in a party
Hoisted over others shoulders in social
Milieu
Don’t take it personally
When you come home
I won’t be there
If I were born to give abundantly
Then somehow that was lost
In translation I found
I could only give to one
The rest had to stay outside
Whilst I built my fire and kept
You warm
hoping you would never wish to
Be free
Of me
Of my chains and my
Need
Love like a laser
Burning on a single point
Penetrating to the core
No flood light here
No casual warming
“Gimme your heart, make it real
Or else forget about it” [ from: Calos Santana – “Smooth”]
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Gotta love a bit of Carlos!
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OOPS typo Carlos
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Reblogged this on cabbagesandkings524 and commented:
TheFeatheredSleep – A very focused love
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😉 that’s one way of putting it!
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All in or nothing. I can relate to that.
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Right? You nailed it.
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